Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Sooo.....

This is a blog where I will vent and get a little personal.

Over the past year, I've had some people tell me that I've become too harsh or brash, or always have an attitude. I can say that, yes, some of that is true. I'm honestly not really sure why this has happened- maybe it's b/c I'm in a state of life where I'm not really happy. I've always been the fairly nice girl. Anyway, I try and try to not be that way. But sometimes if I get mad, the raging bull in me comes out. I usually say things I don't mean when I'm upset, so I TRY to stay quiet so that I don't say something that I'll regret. Also, sometimes, my sarcasm is interpreted the wrong way. I've tried telling people to tell me if it offends them, but they don't seem to listen. I just want people to be honest with me. And what I'm realizing is that not too many people are. I dunno, maybe they're afraid? Reality is that I appreciate honesty. It may not be something that's easy to hear, but I need to hear it so that I can fix it. If I make a mistake and don't realize it and others do, then I need it pointed out to me. I guess this is kind of a cry out to whoever is reading this. I am also going to start making more of point to tell people to let me know when I do something. I need to learn.
I recently had it prophesied over me that I don't have a lot of honest upfront people in my life. And now I am realizing that this couldn't be more true. I guess I have to realize that not everyone cares enough, but for the people that do: please tell me. That's all I'm asking.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I promise I will try to update this thing more often...

Happy New Year, friends!
This may be quite the random blog, so forgive me if I am all over the place.
First of all, I most recently had a friend tell me that she respects my writing style(and yes, you are probably reading this now!)and it inspired me to update my blog. I've always seemed to be able to get things out better on paper(or in this case, internet), which may not always be a good thing. But that's another story for another day.

So, onto the randomness. Today, I was browsing Bathandbodyworks.com and I came across this toothbrush. First of all, when did B&BW start selling toothbrushes? And who pays $9.00 for a toothbrush? I understand if it's an electrical one, but $9.00 for a regular plastic one you can get at the dentist for free? I think not. I've worked a good chunk of of working life at a dental office and the toothbrushes we give out are pretty darn fantastic if I do say so myself. I guess I can't really say a lot b/c I haven't tried this particular toothbrush, but it honestly looks like the cheap plastic ones that they give to kids. The ones that really don't do anything for your gums, or teeth for that matter.

Randomness #2: I recently started going to a new hairdresser. It's a little more expensive than I would usually spend, but I am getting what I pay for at this place. The woman I see is freakin' talented and knows her stuff. My most recent haircut looks awesome and she literally cut my hair into the style in under 30 minutes. I asked her if she could recommend any shampoos, and she gave me this one. I was shocked when I brought it up to the register and the girl told me it was $20. But I figured I probably wouldn't buy it again, so what the heck. I tried it,and let me tell you, my hair has never felt better. It feels so soft, and not only that, it looks amazing. For a while, my hair was freaking out and I was trying different restorative shampoos and nothing really seemed to work. It also felt like there was some weird residue left on it after I washed and it and I had to apply massive amounts of conditioner. With my oily hair, I cannot use conditioner everyday b/c it just weighs my hair down. So, for a few months, my hair was a mess. After using this shampoo, I see a difference in my hair. It's stronger. The question is, do I want to spend $20 on shampoo? I dunno. Maybe I will just b/c my hair feels that good.

Randomness #3: If you know me, you know I love fashion and like to shop. My friend has decided to pursue a career in fashion and I kinda stole her idea about posting outfits. I am probably nowhere near as knowledgeable about fashion as she is, but I try. I probably shop more than what it better for my own good. I think I may need to attend a shopping therapy session, but see the thing is that people don't understand that shopping IS my therapy. There have been times where I felt so sad about something and shopping instantly made me feel better. It might not have solved the problem, but hey at least I felt good for the moment. Hahahahahaha.
Anywho, here is my outfit for today. Forgive me, Pam, for copying you.

Earrings: Target-$5.00(?)
Long Open Cardigan: New York and Company-$39.95
Black Tank Top: Old Navy-$7.00(?)
White Tank Top: Old Navy-$7.00(?)
Ombre Metallic Stripe Scarf: New York and Company-$16.95
Bootcut Jeans: Target/Mossimo-$29.99(?)
Cuff Bracelet: Christmas gift from Mom- Laila Rowe
Flower Ring: New York and Company-$7.00(?)
Kitten Heels: Payless-$9.00


A more serious blog later!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Ahhhh life

SO, I know it's been quite some time since I updated, so I figured I would- a whole 4months later. What's a whole four months? Ok, it is a long time, but I am a procrastinator by nature. Don't judge me!
The last 4 months have been some trying months for me, between family issues, friend issues, personal issues, work issues- I guess you could just say life in general, huh? But for the sake of some people's privacy, and frankly, my own, I will not disclose most of that info. All I can really say is that I'm growing and learning and God is keeping me. That said, I will write about a lighter and perhaps witty subject(I try to be funny when I write, hence the title of my blog, and sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But a blog is to vent your feelings, right?).
So, the subject- WEIGHT LOSS- dun, dun, dun. It's like that weird pain in your leg that you know you should deal with, but don't b/c it doesn't hurt that bad, right? But in reality, it hurts really bad and you need to do something about it before it kills you. I am the kind of person who has had weight issues for a good chunk of my life. I lost a lot of weight in high school, but when I look back at pictures, it seems like I was too skinny. It looks like my body couldn't hold my head up. Being young, I didn't realize the importance of exercising and eating healthy, so I basically ate what I wanted. When I went to college, it was a whole different ball game. You're always on the run, so you grab what's there- which is usually junk food. So since I wasn't too knowledgeable, I was quite disappointed when I had a hard time fitting into my pants after my first year at SCSU. I attempted to eat healthier and exercise, but the reality was that I just didn't have a lot of time since I was always back and forth between work and school. So, over the next 3 years, I gained more weight w/o even realizing it. It wasn't until I came back from a year in Washington DC where you walk EVERYWHERE, that I realized what kind of shape I was in. People were telling me that I looked like I had lost weight, but I all really did was look at them like they had 3 heads and say "Butttt, I didn't." I hadn't weighed myself because, really, the scale scared me. But those people were right- My clothes did fit looser and I was able to fit into a smaller pants size. So after that I knew I was ok for at least a little while.

I went for a physical for the 1st time in 6 years this past April. My dr did tell me that I was overweight, which I knew, and we decided that I would try to start loosing weight. It took me a while at first, b/c like stated earlier, I am a procrastinator to the fullest. I finally buckled down and joined a gym and started, for the first time, pretty much ever, watching what I was eating. It was hard at first and I stuck to walking on the treadmill. You think it's boring? Well, I like it.You see, I'm so freakin' laidback that I needed an exercise machine to match me. It gave me a chance to watch the TV and be nosy. See, I think I'm kind of a closet nosy person, but that's another story for another day. So, one day I got up the nerve to try the elliptical. OMG- it was like torture. You know how when you stub your toe and you just want to scream out massive obscenities, but they just don't come out b/c you know you shouldn't be saying things like that? Yeah, that's how I felt the 1st couple of times, except my legs were the ones screaming obscenities. At me. So I started out doing 5 minutes. I had to stop after 45 seconds. No, I'm not kidding. No. Really, I'm not. Eventually I worked my way up to 10, 15, 20, 30, 45, and eventually an hour. And hey, this machine ALSO gave me the opportunity to watch the TV AND be nosy! Muhahahahaha. So, I tried at my best to go at least 3 times a week. I really wanted to go everyday, but that was not happening. I felt like I wasn't seeing any results, and hey I mean, I probably could have been doing more, but weights intimidate me. Don't laugh. I don't like running either. My coworker kept saying "You're getting so skinny!" and again I looked at her like she had 3 heads and said "Buttttt, I'm not." And then she mentioned the whole inches thing and I was like OOOOOHHHH. RIGHT! I did notice that my pants seemed to fit a little bit looser, so I was on my way. But then, I. went. on. vacation. It was only to my pop's house, but hey, they liked to have soda with dinner and candy bars for dessert. So, I said, hey, it's only a week. Why not? People were still telling me that I was loosing weight so it didn't matter. Well, after I got home, I didn't exactly keep up with the healthy eating and the going to the gym, and now, here we are 3 months later and I have not stepped foot into the gym since the 1st week of July. WHAT? So kill me. But, I do take the bus back and forth to work and the bus doesn't pick me up and drop me off right in front of my house. So, I do some walking-not to mention the treacherous hill that I must walk UP on my way home that usually leaves me out of breath and begging for mercy. But all that said, I had a dr's visit last month and I had lost 6 pounds. Hey, it's something right? Women lose weight weirdly, so I can only be happy about that. The dr even gave me a high five. LOL.
Basically, nothing worth having comes easy. So if you want something, you have to work for it. Usually the end result is good.

Friday, June 19, 2009

I aint no gold digger!

First of all, I want you to scroll down to entry dated Tuesday October 28, 2008.
Read that and then come back to me.
Ready? Ok. So that same guy I spoke of had an appointment with us on the 9th. My coworker kept reminding me about it, b/c she was so excited b/c she thought that we would be so great together. I just kept saying "Ok, Danielle." So, he finally comes in and I pretend like I have no idea about what's about to go down. I left the office at 5:30 and my coworker tells me that now that I was leaving, she was going to talk to him, b/c she knew that I'd be all nosy trying to hear what she was saying. I played it off like I didn't care, but she was right, I would have tried to listen. LOL. So I go home and I'm waiting for her to text me or call me, but there was nothing. So, I did what I had to do for the night and figured she would tell me when I got to work in the AM. I get to work the next day and I'm just waiting for her to spring the news, but of course she was making me wait. Are you crazy? Really? I just wanted her to tell me! After about an hour, I say, "Ok, Danielle. I can't take it anymore!" She turns and gives me this cheesy smile b/c she knows exactly what I'm talking about. And it all went down like this:
First of all she tells me that he thought my name was Heather, that I didn't look like a Christina, I looked like a Heather. Um, really? If you are reading this, do I even remotely look like a Heather? No, I don't, thank you very much! And then he told her that he thought I was really cute, BUT what if I was gold digger? Danielle clearly stated that I was NOT a gold digger. (When she was telling me this, I kinda felt this weird enegry start to rise in me. I think that I really was just offended by what he said.) So then he proceeded to say that he didn't have time to be in a relationship. So Danielle said "Ok. So why can't you be friends? Why don't you go out for dinner or coffee or something?" And he says "Yeah, but what if she takes my money?" That right there just told me that his guy was not worth my time. I understand if you got burned in the past, but really, don't take it out on all of the other women in the universe. AND, my dear, I HAVE MY OWN MONEY TO SPEND! Sure, it would be nice if you pay for dinner every once in a while, or buy me flowers, or give me something sweet, but I CAN SPEND MY OWN MONEY! Ask anyone who has gone shopping with me! How you treat me is far better than what you can buy for me. You lost your chance!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Oh really???

Dating quiz


Mostly B's

You have a realistic outlook on dating. You understand that life is not a rom-com, but don’t be afraid to be a little more discriminating.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The LOLs of LIFE

Yesterday, actually 2 days ago, was a good day for me. I hung out with friends and I always enjoy that. I was getting ready to watch some TV at by BFF's house, when I saw that my mom called and left me a VM and texted me-something about how she was stuck downtown and needed me to pick her AND her friend up. So I'm thinking something serious happened- did somebody smash up my mom's precious car, the car that I think she loves more than her children? (I am totally kidding about that.) So I call my mom and she tells me that she parallel parked downtown and she is parked so close to the curb that she is unable to move and that there's not enough room for her to move forward and pull out. My instant thought is "For real? Is this woman I call my mom crazy?" I ask her if she's being serious and she tells me yes. I ask her again and she still tells me yes. LOL. I beg her to call my little brother so I don't have to leave my friends, but that didn't work out, so I had to drive down there anyways. I get there and I see that there is a HUGE space between the car behind my mom and my mom's car. I asked her if she tried to back up and she said that she did, but was unsuccessful. I tell her to give me the keys and let me try. I warned her that I might scratch her hubcabs, but it was better than being stuck. I hop in the car and put it in reverse. I was only semi-successful. So, I put back into drive and start turning the wheel right to left, right to left. This helps. I put it back in reverse and turn the wheel again. Slowly but surely I'm getting out of the space. I put it back into drive and at this point, I'm inching away from the curb just enough to allow me to pull out. I get out and tell my mom "I'll see you at home!" But alas, her friend tells me to just pull all the way out so my mom doesn't get stuck again. So, I put the car in reverse again and make it so my mom can get out. At this point, my mom is almost in tears, b/c she thought she was going to have to leave her car there. She runs up and hugs me and tells me she doesn't know what she would do without me and thanks me so much for saving her car. I tell her you're welcome and that I need to teach her how to properly parallel park. LOL. It was a sight to see. I love my mom.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Chocolate cake with chocolate icing

If all of the eight desserts listed below were sitting in

front of you, which would you choose (sorry, you can only

pick one)! Trust me...this is very accurate.. Pick your

Dessert, and then look to see what psychiatrists think about

you.

REMEMBER - No Cheating. Make your choice before you check

the meaning.

After taking this dessert personality test, send this e-mail

on to others, but when you do, be sure to put your choice of

dessert in the subject box above.



ALSO, SEND IT TO THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. DON'T

FORGET TO CHANGE YOUR DESSERT CHOICE IN THE SUBJECT BOX
BEFORE YOU FORWARD IT..


Here are your choices:


1. Angel Food Cake

2. Brownies

3. Lemon Meringue Pie

4.. Vanilla Cake With Chocolate Icing

5. Strawberry Short Cake

6. Chocolate Cake With Chocolate Icing

7. Ice Cream

8. Carrot Cake

No, you can't change your mind once you scroll down, so

think carefully about what your choice will be.



OK - Now that you've made your choice, this is what the

researchers say about you.... SCROLL DOWN---No Cheating










1. ANGEL FOOD CAKE -- Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love all

warm and fuzzy items.. A little nutty at times. Sometimes you

need an ice cream cone at the end of the day. Others

perceive you as being childlike and immature at times.



2... BROWNIES -- You are adventurous, love new ideas, and are

a champion of underdogs and a slayer of dragons. When

tempers flare up you whip out your saber. You are always the

oddball with a unique sense of humor and direction. You tend

to be very loyal.



3. LEMON MERINGUE -- Smooth, sexy, a diva at times..
You are an excellent caregiver and a good teacher.

You set your own style because you do your own thing.
You shine when it comes to helping others and have many
friends. Natural leader, loyal, spontaneous. Love to laugh.



4. VANILLA CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING -- Fun-loving, sassy,

humorous, not very grounded in life; very indecisive and

lacking motivation.. Everyone enjoys being around you, but

you are a practical joker. Others should be cautious in

making you mad. However, you are a friend for life.



5. STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE -- Romantic, warm, loving. You care

about other people, can be counted on in a pinch and expect

the same in return. Intuitively keen. You can be very

emotional at times but a true person in every way. You like

to do things for yourself and help others learn about

themselves.



6. CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING -- Sexy; always ready

to give and receive. Very creative, adventurous, ambitious,

and passionate. You can appear to have a cold exterior but

are warm on the inside. Not afraid to take chances. Will not

settle for anything average in life. Love to laugh.



7. ICE CREAM -- You like sports, whether it be baseball,

football, basketball, or soccer. If you could, you would like

to participate, but you enjoy watching sports. You don't

like to give up the remote control. You tend to be

self-centered and high maintenance.



8. CARROT CAKE -- You are a very fun loving person, who

likes to laugh. You are fun to be with. People like to hang

out with you. You are a very warm hearted person and a

little quirky at times. You have many loyal friends.. You

were meant to lead and teach others. A wonderful role model.