Ahhhh life

SO, I know it's been quite some time since I updated, so I figured I would- a whole 4months later. What's a whole four months? Ok, it is a long time, but I am a procrastinator by nature. Don't judge me!
The last 4 months have been some trying months for me, between family issues, friend issues, personal issues, work issues- I guess you could just say life in general, huh? But for the sake of some people's privacy, and frankly, my own, I will not disclose most of that info. All I can really say is that I'm growing and learning and God is keeping me. That said, I will write about a lighter and perhaps witty subject(I try to be funny when I write, hence the title of my blog, and sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But a blog is to vent your feelings, right?).
So, the subject- WEIGHT LOSS- dun, dun, dun. It's like that weird pain in your leg that you know you should deal with, but don't b/c it doesn't hurt that bad, right? But in reality, it hurts really bad and you need to do something about it before it kills you. I am the kind of person who has had weight issues for a good chunk of my life. I lost a lot of weight in high school, but when I look back at pictures, it seems like I was too skinny. It looks like my body couldn't hold my head up. Being young, I didn't realize the importance of exercising and eating healthy, so I basically ate what I wanted. When I went to college, it was a whole different ball game. You're always on the run, so you grab what's there- which is usually junk food. So since I wasn't too knowledgeable, I was quite disappointed when I had a hard time fitting into my pants after my first year at SCSU. I attempted to eat healthier and exercise, but the reality was that I just didn't have a lot of time since I was always back and forth between work and school. So, over the next 3 years, I gained more weight w/o even realizing it. It wasn't until I came back from a year in Washington DC where you walk EVERYWHERE, that I realized what kind of shape I was in. People were telling me that I looked like I had lost weight, but I all really did was look at them like they had 3 heads and say "Butttt, I didn't." I hadn't weighed myself because, really, the scale scared me. But those people were right- My clothes did fit looser and I was able to fit into a smaller pants size. So after that I knew I was ok for at least a little while.

I went for a physical for the 1st time in 6 years this past April. My dr did tell me that I was overweight, which I knew, and we decided that I would try to start loosing weight. It took me a while at first, b/c like stated earlier, I am a procrastinator to the fullest. I finally buckled down and joined a gym and started, for the first time, pretty much ever, watching what I was eating. It was hard at first and I stuck to walking on the treadmill. You think it's boring? Well, I like it.You see, I'm so freakin' laidback that I needed an exercise machine to match me. It gave me a chance to watch the TV and be nosy. See, I think I'm kind of a closet nosy person, but that's another story for another day. So, one day I got up the nerve to try the elliptical. OMG- it was like torture. You know how when you stub your toe and you just want to scream out massive obscenities, but they just don't come out b/c you know you shouldn't be saying things like that? Yeah, that's how I felt the 1st couple of times, except my legs were the ones screaming obscenities. At me. So I started out doing 5 minutes. I had to stop after 45 seconds. No, I'm not kidding. No. Really, I'm not. Eventually I worked my way up to 10, 15, 20, 30, 45, and eventually an hour. And hey, this machine ALSO gave me the opportunity to watch the TV AND be nosy! Muhahahahaha. So, I tried at my best to go at least 3 times a week. I really wanted to go everyday, but that was not happening. I felt like I wasn't seeing any results, and hey I mean, I probably could have been doing more, but weights intimidate me. Don't laugh. I don't like running either. My coworker kept saying "You're getting so skinny!" and again I looked at her like she had 3 heads and said "Buttttt, I'm not." And then she mentioned the whole inches thing and I was like OOOOOHHHH. RIGHT! I did notice that my pants seemed to fit a little bit looser, so I was on my way. But then, I. went. on. vacation. It was only to my pop's house, but hey, they liked to have soda with dinner and candy bars for dessert. So, I said, hey, it's only a week. Why not? People were still telling me that I was loosing weight so it didn't matter. Well, after I got home, I didn't exactly keep up with the healthy eating and the going to the gym, and now, here we are 3 months later and I have not stepped foot into the gym since the 1st week of July. WHAT? So kill me. But, I do take the bus back and forth to work and the bus doesn't pick me up and drop me off right in front of my house. So, I do some walking-not to mention the treacherous hill that I must walk UP on my way home that usually leaves me out of breath and begging for mercy. But all that said, I had a dr's visit last month and I had lost 6 pounds. Hey, it's something right? Women lose weight weirdly, so I can only be happy about that. The dr even gave me a high five. LOL.
Basically, nothing worth having comes easy. So if you want something, you have to work for it. Usually the end result is good.