This is a blog where I will vent and get a little personal.
Over the past year, I've had some people tell me that I've become too harsh or brash, or always have an attitude. I can say that, yes, some of that is true. I'm honestly not really sure why this has happened- maybe it's b/c I'm in a state of life where I'm not really happy. I've always been the fairly nice girl. Anyway, I try and try to not be that way. But sometimes if I get mad, the raging bull in me comes out. I usually say things I don't mean when I'm upset, so I TRY to stay quiet so that I don't say something that I'll regret. Also, sometimes, my sarcasm is interpreted the wrong way. I've tried telling people to tell me if it offends them, but they don't seem to listen. I just want people to be honest with me. And what I'm realizing is that not too many people are. I dunno, maybe they're afraid? Reality is that I appreciate honesty. It may not be something that's easy to hear, but I need to hear it so that I can fix it. If I make a mistake and don't realize it and others do, then I need it pointed out to me. I guess this is kind of a cry out to whoever is reading this. I am also going to start making more of point to tell people to let me know when I do something. I need to learn.
I recently had it prophesied over me that I don't have a lot of honest upfront people in my life. And now I am realizing that this couldn't be more true. I guess I have to realize that not everyone cares enough, but for the people that do: please tell me. That's all I'm asking.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
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Posted by Chris-Chris at 8:24 PM
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I have found that most people don't know how to be honest because they're taught to be nice to people, and if their thoughts aren't nice, they shouldn't be said. I do believe that the Bible says "truthful lips endure forever, but a lying tongue is but for a moment." It's in Psalms I think somewhere.. or maybe Proverbs.
Anyway, I think the biggest struggle is timing. People just get so awkward, and because of the lack of friendly confrontation, walls are built and mistrust is formed.
Sorry to hear you're struggling with this, but I'm really glad you're being open about it. You may end up with a different set of friends by the end of the year because of peoples' dishonesty (I've had to do a lot of weeding over the last 2 years myself), but you'll be so much better off for it.
Go you! = )
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